After fifteen weeks (counted em’) I got my hair cut. Usually I visit the salon every five weeks so you can imagine how long, bushy, and out of control my thick bangs were.
I read the salon’s new rules on their website: be quiet while being shampooed and keep mask on at all times. Sounds reasonable. I can do that. No problem.
Contemplative shampoo over, comfortably seated in the beautician’s swivel chair, I see myself in the mirror. My hair. I stare at my hair. It is so white. I can’t believe how white it is. Is this the result of being quarantined?
Slowly it dawns on me: This is my first haircut since cataract surgery. My hair color looks different because I am now looking through clear lenses! It is so white! I thought I had been seeing clearly before but it was obvious I hadn’t been. I believed that I was close to being a blonde. No doubt about it though, this is white hair.
I remembered reading that Sigmund Freud wrote about a friend of his who displayed heroic clarity. Freud explained his friend was not only able to see clearly, he was rational, and allowed himself to apprehend reality fully with all his senses.
Heroic clarity – was seeing my hair it’s true color heroic clarity? I think so. I know that writing a memoir about the personal growth I experienced in Freudian psychoanalysis has reinforced how clouded the lenses in the past have been. They discolored my reality and please know that I’m not just talking about cataracts!
In the beauty salon, the reality of my white hair was stark, hard to miss. The reality of what happens in personal growth is often easy to miss.
Maybe it takes heroic clarity to know when we grow and change. Is there a change that you have made that you are proud of? Don’t be shy, write to us as anonymous if you must but let us know what you have accomplished and we will celebrate with you!
IMAGE: If you take a look at the image for today, you will see that the background on which my white hair is resting is probably what my hair used to look like to me when I looked through the clouded lenses.